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sometimes i just want to have someone to hold and get close to, i hate being single at one point and at the other im kinda happy that i dont have anyone, its wierd but i cant keep wondering if im going to find anybody, its been over 6 months and i wouldnt think that i would want another relationship this soon, i dont know, its so hard to find somebody around here, i mean im not really trying but deep down inside theres a piece of me that wants to, i dont want to go to a bar or a club to meet someone i want it to be something better than that not saying that it would be a bad thing but i just feel like if i meet someone at a bar or club its just going to be a fling, if im going to be with somebody i want to be with them longer than a few times....lol i hate seeing other people together and looking so "happy" i want to have someone to hold me and visit me when im at work, idk its to much to ask for because i dont think im really worth it...but i know i shouldnt doubt myself like that..anywho im kinda going on and on...lol BYEEE :D